Letter to grandma

Dear Por Por,

I know that you could not read English and you did not know how to use a computer. I am sure that you learnt a lot of new things up there heaven and there is always Gong Gong for backup :D.

A lot of things have changed since we last saw you, Mum and Dad got a BMW and a Mercedes hahaha, David is growing up fast and no longer the cute little boy he once was, Zach is now a University student studying to become a Civil Engineer and me? Haha where should I start? Well I find myself growing more and more every year, I am starting to prioritize more and getting my life in order, I am on my way to becoming the man that you have always believed that I can be. I will change the world one day, one way or another.

I have always wondered how you managed to stay so strong. You raised 10 children, all who became excellent people in their own right. You managed to keep yourself together after the man, the love of your life passed away. You are the reason why my father is the great man that he is, because of you I was lucky enough to have such great parents who have taught me so much in life which is a gift that not many people out there have. Without you I will not be the man that I am now, without you I do not know how I would have turned out.

I have learnt so much from you Por Por, I love you and I miss you so much. You are the reason why I believe there is a God, your strength has inspired me and you amaze me with your wisdom. I only wish that you were around long enough so you could have influenced my little brother more but I will try my best to do that for you.

We all miss you here very much, I am sure you will be glad to know that cousin Winfield has a son now who is almost 1 year old and cousin Kamelia is a bout to get married. I will strive to make you proud of me, to make you feel like your effort has been well used.

I hope you and Gong Gong are enjoying your happiness together and watching over us from up there. Thinking a bout you makes me smile, you give me direction in life and you inspire me to be at my best. I can feel you watching over me and it is a really great thing for me to have especially at this time when I am going through the things that I am going through now.

I love you,

Aaron

Ugly Truth

I just watched the move "The Ugly Truth". The movie was pretty funny filled with a lot of jokes and also a lot of perceptions about the truth of men, women and relationships.

The show brought up a few interesting points, it said that all that men care is tits and ass, and in a relationship all they care about is how women use it. This is true to a certain extent, many men out there will be willing to have sex with a women just based on their looks. However there are also many men out there who want more than that, there are many men who want love, they want that intimacy with a partner, they want someone there who will love and care for them and someone who will support them through the thick and thin. There are more women than men who are unwilling to have sex without the emotional attachment but that does not mean that ALL men want sex without the intimacy.

Another interesting thing is how the show mentions the stereotype about how men only care about looks. I think I'm a living example that that stereotype is fucking bullshit, sure I do like to admire the physical attractiveness of a female but I have had feelings for women who weren't exactly supermodels but with great personalities. Women are the biggest hypocrites in this subject because I know many women who are shallow as fuck and judge every single physical imperfection about a guy.

I think the best part of the movie is that when the main character (forgot his name but he is chauvinistic, shallow and just an asshole who lives his life pretending he does not believe in love although he does bang a lot of hot girls) is the way he is because he was screwed over many times by women who were co-dependent, shalow and insecure. Yes there are a lot of girls who get hurt but bad guys out there and yes that is very sad but no one really wonders why the bad guys are bad. Yes some guys are just assholes since the day they were born but I believe many of the "players" and "bad boys" out there are like that only because they have been hurt by a girl(s). For example I get criticized for going out there and having fun and fun sometimes includes drinking massive amounts of alcohol and mingling with lots of women however when I do try to settle down all I get is drama, bullshit and sheer disappointment so is it wrong for me to way to act the way I do?

Another thing that was brought up was the "checklist" women have. The checklist usually includes the phisycal attributes a guy should have, status, income, social preferences etc... Its fucking sickening cos I have feel victim to losing out to someone because of their "resume" when it is clear that I am better in the "little things" which everyone seems to take for granted these days. There are many women who chose looks over soul, income over caring, status over compassion and yet they usually are the ones who complain a bout being the victims off everything.

No I am not someone with a chip on his shoulder who is hating on the world. In fact, I am loving every single second of it. I tend to push the people who all the shallow bullshit away and keep those of quality. I know that there are many women of quality out there who do not fit into what I just mentioned, if you are one of them please come and prove me wrong :). I am far from a pessimist however I do look at things realistically. Everything I have said in the post I have lived and seen with my own eyes. But hey I am a 21 year old who has never been in a proper relationship so maybe everything I just said is not credible at all or maybe I am just a tad bit wiser than you.

Anyway back to happy days :)

Peace

Loose

There will always be that time
When the master lets the student go
When the parent leaves the child
When one chooses a different path
When one chooses one thing over another
When one decides its just time to go

After that happens we can either
Cry and feel sad bout it
Tell the world to go fuck themselves
Get revenge
Pretend everything is okay
Man the fuck up and bounce back

One door closes and another opens
One person falls and another gets back up
Those who don't get noticed, rise to the top
I look at drama in the face and spit on it
I laugh, dance and sing like there is no tomorrow
I smile

-Aaron Koo

BALLLINNN

Just got back from shooting hoops just then. I'm slowly starting to feel my game coming back. Started off really shit, was missing every single thing but as I started to relax and get warm my release became much more consistent and started knocking down everything. I'm very determined to get my game back up to where it used to be or better than it used to be.

There's is just something bout stepping on the court that just helps me feel like I am in a different world. As soon as I start bouncing that ball, nothing else matters. Its me in the game, all the bullshit in my life does not matter. I guess this is a test for my dedication and will power, we'll see how things turn out but I think they'll be just fine :D

Gotta start getting my shit ready for China now, hopefully my payments all go through soon so I can start buying the necessities that I need before I leave. Really excited to see what is going to happen when I get there. Really needa start practicing the mandarin and stuff, don't want to get screwed over hahaha.

Yea I will be balliinnnn soon

Peace

Blues

Yea another one of those days, where I wake up after getting completely intoxicated. I once again managed to end with with fucking unnecessary and drama in my life, not just one in fact.

Its just fucked because I should be excited right now because I am a bout to take a journey that will most likely change my life for the better but its being overshadowed by all this crap. I have always taken pride in not being one of those people who whinge about how "life sucks" and although sometimes I am on the borderline to become one of those people, I have managed to stay strong.

For those whom are close to me, you will stick with me always when I rise up to the top. I will get there, its just sooner or later. For those who took me for granted, for letting me go, who chose to be on my bad side and so forth, you can watch me from the bottom.

To the friends who have stuck by me: I will always treasure you and never forget you

To the woman that I will love: I will do everything in my power to make you the envy of the rest

To the haters: Thank you for strengthening me because without you I will not be here


My voice will be heard, change will be made and no one can stop me.

Joke

Sometimes life is like a joke
things happen when you least expect it
everything you did right turned out to be wrong
punchlines come out of no where
like surprises in life
It can bring laughter to those who get it
It confuses those who don't
It might even make some ppl angry
Like life jokes can be about race, sex, people, fame... anything......
Sometimes you have to play a joke on someone
before they play it on you
Like life a joke can be mild and easy, it can also be harsh and hurtful
It can be practical or it can just come out of your mouth
It can be planned and set out or it can be spontaneous

Is the joke on you?

Someone is probably laughing at me now

Looking up

Every day is a new day
bring us surprises
some good
some not so good
we ask why
we find out how
we look for what we want
we try to find where we can get it
we wonder who can bring it to us
The good times seem to pass soo quick
The bad times seem to last forever
Feelings are never justified
Most things seem so unfair
The chase is never ending
We get hurt
We hurt
Laugh, cry, smile, yell,
We put on this mask, to show people what we want them to see
We listen to music to try find someone who's going through similar things
We dance to the music
friends come and go
we love and fight

and for me,
at the end of the day
I look up
and pray for strength, wisdom and forgiveness
so that when the new day comes
it might be better



-Aaron Koo